tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-55494917901780098322012-02-17T10:39:58.500+08:00Gwen Yonghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06752853493336737271noreply@blogger.comBlogger331100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5549491790178009832.post-62505674037800848502011-08-22T20:00:00.002+08:002011-08-22T20:09:08.398+08:00<div>life is sacred</div><div>life is a miracle</div><div>life can't be bought</div><div>life can't be replaced</div><div>but (some) life can be saved</div><div> <br /></div><div> <br /></div><div>life's too short. time's too short to be wasting life.</div><div> <br /></div><div> <br /></div><div> <br /></div><div><i><span class="Apple-style-span" >i'm sorry little one, i didn't mean for this to happen. R.I.P.</span></i></div><div> <br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5549491790178009832-6250567403780084850?l=earwenleralonde.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Gwen Yonghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06752853493336737271noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5549491790178009832.post-67117845192364395892011-04-03T21:32:00.002+08:002011-04-03T22:28:28.512+08:00dear little one,<div><br /></div><div>i hope all is well with you over there..</div><div>i heard where you are is a place everyone wants to be when they leave..just like how you have left.</div><div>i never got the chance to say goodbye, but i know i had to apologize..</div><div>options weren't possible..you knew it too..</div><div>again, today, it reminds me of how innocent you were</div><div>so once again..<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">i'm</span> sorry</div><div>that's all i could ever say to you</div><div><br /></div><div>you could have breathed the same air </div><div>you could have seen the wonderful world god created for us</div><div>you could have walked and run the earth too</div><div><br /></div><div>you would have known what it is like to laugh and cry</div><div>you would have known what it is like to feel and try</div><div>but all you had known what pain feels like and to scream...in silence</div><div><br /></div><div>this is a little prayer for you. you are not forgotten.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>love, </div><div>mom</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><i>a prayer is made to all the unborn who didn't have the chance to see the world, to breathe the air..to L.I.V.E</i></div><div><i><br /></i></div><div><i><br /></i></div><div><i><br /></i></div><div><i><br /></i></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5549491790178009832-6711784519236439589?l=earwenleralonde.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Gwen Yonghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06752853493336737271noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5549491790178009832.post-6644719025895974982011-01-11T10:00:00.001+08:002011-01-11T21:47:40.399+08:002010, my best friend then...<div><br /></div><div>i am writing to you as i did to 2009. i hoped you to be better than him but you gave me more to fight for. it would have been good to start a new journey with you. yet, you had to make another hard one for me.</div><div><br /></div><div>now my dear...my new best friend,</div><div>i judged you all too quickly thinking you'd make a better friend. you see, i never learn from my mistakes but everyone knows that learning is a never-ending process. i'll be letting you go now but that doesn't mean i'll forget you...no. somehow, you taught me to make better decision...to be hard on principles set and dignity...and to s.m.i.l.e...once again. thanks for the 365 days you've given me. </div><div><br /></div><div>and now, let me introduce you to a new friend...</div><div><br /></div><div>hello 2011.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5549491790178009832-664471902589597498?l=earwenleralonde.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Gwen Yonghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06752853493336737271noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5549491790178009832.post-41040582875597508012010-12-26T23:56:00.003+08:002010-12-27T00:00:53.181+08:00worried is not what i should feel<div>for you said this is real</div><div>knowing that you'll see her this day</div><div>yet i shouldn't feel this way</div><div><br /></div><div>fear is not what i should go through</div><div>for you said this is true</div><div>to just imagine a small incident could happen</div><div>nothing i have should be taken</div><div><br /></div><div>love is what i'm feeling again</div><div>for you have shown and given</div><div>to open up and believe once more</div><div>and i believe we can</div><div><br /></div><div>you believe, i believe...we believe</div><div><br /></div><div>we can...</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5549491790178009832-4104058287559750801?l=earwenleralonde.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Gwen Yonghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06752853493336737271noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5549491790178009832.post-6559946378120050012010-12-21T22:53:00.002+08:002010-12-21T22:56:22.538+08:00upon knowing you<div>how my life has changed</div><div>for you have opened my heart</div><div>from what i call revenge</div><div><br /></div><div>happy is who i am</div><div>and love is who you are</div><div>there's nothing like you and i</div><div>a mirror image we can never deny</div><div><br /></div><div>we must have been in god's plan</div><div>for these two crazy people</div><div>has more to write in words</div><div>that turn into chapters</div><div><br /></div><div>together...</div><div><br /></div><div>i love you.</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5549491790178009832-655994637812005001?l=earwenleralonde.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Gwen Yonghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06752853493336737271noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5549491790178009832.post-45479234543686981682010-07-08T15:22:00.002+08:002010-07-08T15:46:17.708+08:00i used to ask myself..<br />if i was doing the right thing<br />if this is what i should do<br />if this is the best thing to do...<br />and when i answered those questions..<br />tears came and nothing left..<br /><br />then, it lead me to ponder...<br />if only i had done the right thing...<br />if only i knew that was the right thing..<br />if only i hadn't done it..<br />and when i came to a conclusion..<br />anger came and sadness left...<br /><br />finally,<br />when i thought the past had gone away..<br />it haunts back<br />there goes my little effort...<br />in pretending that i was okay..<br /><br />and now...<br />usually when the past returns,<br />i'd be all confused and messed up...<br />but last night, i felt nothing...<br /><br /><em>the past is who i am today</em><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5549491790178009832-4547923454368698168?l=earwenleralonde.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Gwen Yonghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06752853493336737271noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5549491790178009832.post-76941620705361673552010-06-01T22:39:00.004+08:002010-06-01T23:38:47.863+08:00dear liar,<br />i never knew you were a bag full of words<br />words that were spoken were never intended, defined and done<br />words that gave me hopes and dreams<br />words that made me believe<br />words that in the end were meaningless and empty...<br /><br />dear coward,<br />you seem to run away when problems knocks on your door<br />problems that made you confused, ignorant and selfish<br />problems that caused you to disappear and left me hanging<br />problems that made you a liar<br /><br />dear asshole,<br />do you know how much of an asshole you are?<br />have you any idea what did you do and cause?<br />do you know that lying and being a coward only shapes you to be alone in the end?<br /><br />now see, i have the answer that you need: <em></em><strong><span style="color:#ff0000;">REALITY</span></strong><br /><br /><em>you'll never know what you have till it's gone</em><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5549491790178009832-7694162070536167355?l=earwenleralonde.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Gwen Yonghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06752853493336737271noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5549491790178009832.post-25599124722834751192010-02-07T23:19:00.002+08:002010-02-07T23:26:57.805+08:00you know there are times we ought to be happy<br /><br />i thought i was...<br />i thought i didn't have to go through any tortures and pain again<br />but here i am, feeling the same<br /><br />lessons learnt from the past...<br />i never want to make the same mistakes again<br />but here i am, committing it again<br /><br />i must and have learnt to say no<br />i don't want to lie to myself to make things fine<br />but here i am, giving in again<br /><br />for once, i just want to be happy<br />be happy with love<br />but here i am...rambling my unheard thoughts<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5549491790178009832-2559912472283475119?l=earwenleralonde.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Gwen Yonghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06752853493336737271noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5549491790178009832.post-2134901095911753062010-01-02T12:11:00.003+08:002010-01-02T12:40:54.837+08:00dear 2009,<br /><br />i never realized how fast you went by. it was only a year ago i thought i had everything i wanted..everything i needed..but no. i was in such denial that i lied to myself thinking i was contented.<br /><br />laughter ended up in tears, smiles became frowns, happiness turned into sadness, trust and love were broken. i was caught in a beautiful mess and got through it on my own. i am weak-hearted. i am not strong. but i am proud i managed.<br /><br />there's nothing in you that i wish to bring and share with this new friend of mine. you were too harsh and i don't think you should be around anymore. and so i'm telling you that i'm leaving you behind. please let me go. i need to move on.<br /><br />i hope you don't mind this new friendship of mine. i'm hoping he'll show me a positive year ahead. you had your time. so i'm saying goodbye to you and thanks for everything. farewell.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5549491790178009832-213490109591175306?l=earwenleralonde.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Gwen Yonghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06752853493336737271noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5549491790178009832.post-80585650053546914012009-10-07T15:42:00.001+08:002009-10-07T15:45:02.889+08:00<div style="font-family: verdana; font-size: 13px;" id="songlyrics" align="left">I got the call today, I didn't wanna hear<br />But I knew that it would come<br />An old true friend of ours was talkin' on the phone<br />She said you found someone<br />And I thought of all the bad luck,<br />And the struggles we went through<br />And how I lost me and you lost you<br />What are these voices outside love's open door<br />Make us throw off our contentment<br />And beg for something more?<br /><br />I'm learning to live without you now<br />But I miss you sometimes<br />The more I know, the less I understand<br />All the things I thought I knew, I'm learning again<br />I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter<br />But my will gets weak<br />And my thoughts seem to scatter<br />But I think it's about forgiveness<br />Forgiveness<br />Even if, even if you don't love me anymore<br /><br />These times are so uncertain<br />There's a yearning undefined<br />People filled with rage<br />We all need a little tenderness<br />How can love survive in such a graceless age<br />The trust and self-assurance that can lead to happiness<br />They're the very things we kill, I guess<br />Pride and competition cannot fill these empty arms<br />And the work I put between us,<br />Doesn't keep me warm<br /><br />I'm learning to live without you now<br />But I miss you, Baby<br />The more I know, the less I understand<br />All the things I thought I figured out, I have to learn again<br />I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter<br />But everything changes<br />And my friends seem to scatter<br />But I think it's about forgiveness<br />Forgiveness<br />Even if, even if you don't love me anymore<br /><br />There are people in your life who've come and gone<br />They let you down and hurt your pride<br />Better put it all behind you; life goes on<br />You keep carrin' that anger, it'll eat you inside<br /><br />I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter<br />But my will gets weak<br />And my thoughts seem to scatter<br />But I think it's about forgiveness<br />Forgiveness<br />Even if, even if you don't love me anymore<br /><br />I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter<br />Because the flesh will get weak<br />And the ashes will scatter<br />So I'm thinkin' about forgiveness<br />Forgiveness<br />Even if, even if you don't love me anymore<br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">-Eagles, Heart of the Matter-</span><br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5549491790178009832-8058565005354691401?l=earwenleralonde.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Gwen Yonghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06752853493336737271noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5549491790178009832.post-25016684095292776302009-08-03T17:18:00.003+08:002009-08-03T17:37:50.752+08:00As time gets nearer<br />it gets harder and harder..<br />to know that this is really over<br />to know that you're really gone...<br /><br />It is hard because you keep appearing in my dreams..<br />It is hard because everywhere i go reminds me of 'us'<br />It is hard because you are still within my heart and soul<br /><br />Leaving here is very hard to do..<br />my heart is too heavy and it sinks on this part of the land..<br /><br />=(<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5549491790178009832-2501668409529277630?l=earwenleralonde.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Gwen Yonghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06752853493336737271noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5549491790178009832.post-23916608830063876222009-07-20T23:50:00.004+08:002009-07-21T18:34:48.913+08:00it has been a month where we walked down the end of our path<br />and it wasn't easy for the both of us..<br />but how would i know..<br />you were always the stronger one<br /><br />in days you would have already found a new companion<br />in hours you would have already thrown the past away<br />in minutes you would have already ignored the best times<br />in seconds you would have already had forgotten about me<br /><br />sometimes i wonder what you're up to..<br />if you are well?<br />to tell you the truth..<br />i really do miss you and the times we had together..<br /><br />BUT<br />i had finally come to realize that i have wasted 2 years MISSING out LIFE<br />the life i'm supposed to explore at this point of my days on this earth<br />and yet i never said i wasted 2 years of my life with someone whom i loved so dearly and cared about..<br />for that 2 years really was a lesson learnt to be someone better..<br /><br />everyday i see a brighter day...<br />i feel like a little child in a candy store..<br />walking around rows of candies, not knowing which to choose..<br />it's a whole new phase for me to get back to the top of my happiness and joys<br /><br />and the best part is that i have my dear heartlings: family and friends..<br />who is here for me..all the time<br />who is still wanting to help and had helped me gone through the darkness of my misery<br /><br />and again..i wondered about you..<br />you've probably got a new friend..and for sure you've got your <span style="FONT-STYLE: italic">antidote</span><br />but you know what?..you're still lonely and would never be as happy<br /><br />WHY?<br />it's because the both of us know that i have caused myself a great loss<br />but guess what?.. yours is even GREATER<br />for someone who would stand by your side..<br />for someone who would make an enormous sacrifice for you<br />for someone who would have done everything to satisfy your needs<br />and for someone would have been disowned by their own flesh and blood..<br /><br />well, things would have been perfect if that someone shouldn't have LIED for 2 years..<br />but what great difference would it have made if you had DONE and LIED for 2 years..<br />so tell me..who is the one who deserved more pain?<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5549491790178009832-2391660883006387622?l=earwenleralonde.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Gwen Yonghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06752853493336737271noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5549491790178009832.post-21690894173275881372009-07-06T15:41:00.002+08:002009-07-06T15:50:34.931+08:00you once told me,<br />Who is she to decide our relationship?<br />And i told you it was because you involved her in it...<br /><br />Now i asked you..<br />Who is she to make your decision?<br />And you told me she is the rose of your heart..<br />That you need to follow what she says is best for you..<br /><br />Sometimes we make decisions on our own..<br />and sometimes we take advices from our surroundings..the people we love..our hearts..<br /><br />But you know sometimes..<br />We need to follow what our heart wants...desires<br />and not what our surroundings, the people we love want..<br />That'll make them happy but not you..<br /><br />If you follow what you want and not theirs..<br />You'll be happy..and so will they....<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5549491790178009832-2169089417327588137?l=earwenleralonde.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Gwen Yonghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06752853493336737271noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5549491790178009832.post-37489993095259822582009-07-02T00:56:00.002+08:002009-07-02T01:24:51.916+08:00the time you blocked me from all corners,<br />the moment you shut the door on me,<br />it made me finally realize that there's no more hope..faith..and love for me to wish upon anymore.<br />and so you do not need to worry about doing such anymore,<br />because i've stopped.<br /><br />what i've said to you just now is what you want to hear but not what i wanted to say.<br />i've not said everything because words that pour out of my mouth would not register in your mind and would have the least definition in your soul.<br /><br />even you thought that we were fake from the start,<br />there weren't anything true..<br />but i did believe there were..<br />because i had took a very big step that could cost me my own flesh and blood..<br />i had given my all..everything which you never did<br />and i think that is the reason why you're taking this easily.<br />and you let your anger help you go through this..<br /><br />my mistakes may be small to me but are very huge for you..<br />and you couldn't give me another chance..once last chance from you for me to mend..<br />your mistakes may be small to you but are very deep for me..<br />and yet i had given you multiple chances...because i love you too much<br />i love you too much to believe that you will change..that you've changed but you never did<br />i believed that you appreciated me all this while, but you took that advantage against me..<br />you can't even be there when i needed you most and it didn't happen once..and so i resorted in calling a friend.<br />i've put my hopes too high in you to believe that you'd be a better man<br />i guess i was wrong...<br />and those are the reasons why i am struggling and you're not<br /><br />they say home is where the heart is..<br />family is where the home is..<br />i have nothing left here for me to hang on..not even my closest friends could help me<br />and when i go back home..i'm going back the family, and not for anyone else.<br />from there, i'll try.<br />i'll start a new life...a new hope..a new faith in myself and in god.<br /><br />remember when i said you need to change?<br />do it, do it for the better...do it for yourself..<br />otherwise, you will never be happy<br />and,<br />learn to let go or you'll be in denial for the rest of your life.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5549491790178009832-3748999309525982258?l=earwenleralonde.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Gwen Yonghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06752853493336737271noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5549491790178009832.post-47656034962645752852009-06-28T11:45:00.003+08:002009-06-28T12:01:47.917+08:00<pre style="font-family: webdings;">I feel so unsure<br />As I take your hand and lead you to the dance floor<br />As the music dies something in your eyes<br />Calls to mind a silver screen and now its sad goodbye.<br /><br />I'm never gonna dance again<br />guilty feet have got no rhythm<br />Though it's easy to pretend<br />I know you're not a fool<br />I should have known better than to cheat a friend<br />And waste a chance that I've been given<br />So I'm never gonna dance again<br />the way I danced with you<br /><br />Time can never mend<br />The careless whispers of a good friend<br />To the heart and mind ignorance is kind<br />There's no comfort in the truth<br />Pain is all you'll find<br /><br />Tonight the music seems so loud<br />I wish that we could lose this crowd.<br />Maybe it's better this way<br />We'd hurt each other with the things we want to say.<br />We could have been so good together<br />We could have lived this dance forever<br />But now who's gonna dance with me<br />Please stay...<br /><br />-WHAM-<br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">only thing that there wasn't any disloyalty..but only dishonesty</span><br /></pre><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5549491790178009832-4765603496264575285?l=earwenleralonde.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Gwen Yonghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06752853493336737271noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5549491790178009832.post-22276998007314822912009-06-25T21:54:00.005+08:002009-06-25T22:21:52.737+08:00Dear God,<br /><br />what did i do to have deserve my stupidity?<br />why did i have to crush his heart?<br />what did he do to deserve this pain?<br /><br />give him the strength to stand up again<br />give him the courage to fight against the pain<br />give him the life he plans to build<br />give him the love that he deserves<br /><br />show him my regrets and flaws<br />show him my weaknesses and falls<br />show him how sincere i am<br />so sorry to have kept and lied<br /><br />i can't go on..<br />i can't hold on..<br />i can't survive...<br />i can't live...without you<br /><br />i need you. i love you..too much. please.<br /><br />yours sincerely.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5549491790178009832-2227699800731482291?l=earwenleralonde.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Gwen Yonghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06752853493336737271noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5549491790178009832.post-15079766198926197952009-04-12T18:00:00.000+08:002009-04-12T18:01:25.749+08:00<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_Ot9S-rIR_Ec/SeG4sK0585I/AAAAAAAAAFI/MIfCg784xc4/s1600-h/Image010.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_Ot9S-rIR_Ec/SeG4sK0585I/AAAAAAAAAFI/MIfCg784xc4/s320/Image010.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5323739303488648082" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><div style="text-align: center;">it was ten years ago..<br />i still remembered clearly when our eyes met.<br />you were silent..<br />you were in fear..<br />i held you close..<br />you felt secured...<br />i knew you were the one to start a new chapter in my life.<br /><br />watching you grow was like the plot in my chapters.<br />watching you grow was never like any other<br />you were different..<br />you were special..<br />you were the closest to my heart - family.<br /><br />like a mother's worry,<br />when you were missing..<br />when you were gone...<br />when you were hurt...<br />when you were sick..<br />but i know you were strong.<br /><br />ten years later..<br />when you were missing..<br />when you were gone..<br />when you were hurt..<br />and when you were sick..<br />you were no longer strong.<br /><br />and now,<br />our eyes did not meet.<br />you were silent..<br />you were in fear..<br />i couldn't held you close..<br />i couldn't say goodbye..<br />and so this is the ending of the chapter in my life.<br /><br />it will be hard to let go..<br />for ten years is a very long time..<br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">Fester</span>...<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5549491790178009832-1507976619892619795?l=earwenleralonde.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Gwen Yonghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06752853493336737271noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5549491790178009832.post-44334889021732711242008-12-11T00:10:00.003+08:002008-12-11T00:38:48.486+08:00we are two different people<br />in two different worlds...<br />we are two different people<br />with different thoughts...<br />at times i do not see it your way, do not understand your situations, or your feelings<br />but most of the time i do.<br /><br />what about you?<br /><br />i've given the effort to live in your world<br />i've took the time to learn and understand your world<br />i've lived around the loneliness of your world<br />yet, i've survived the extreme tortures of your world<br />and at times i was lost in your world<br />i never failed to thought of you...<br /><br />now, what have you seen in mine?<br /><br /><span style="font-size:85%;"><span style="font-style: italic;">*i know the distance is our worst enemy, but it's supposed to make us stronger...not drift us apart because i'm starting to feel so*</span></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5549491790178009832-4433488902173271124?l=earwenleralonde.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Gwen Yonghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06752853493336737271noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5549491790178009832.post-70244086820101009272008-11-24T16:07:00.003+08:002008-11-24T16:30:11.389+08:00<div style="text-align: justify;">this is not the first time this is happening.<br />and it has to come back to the same question: <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">WHY</span>?<br /><br />1) Why do you need to worry about something that is already out of your life for good?<br />2) Why do you keep thinking out of the box, but not <span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 51);">LOOK </span>what's outside the box?<br />3) Why can't you tell whose feelings you should care about more or should not care about at all?<br /><br />the reason you might feel that way is because of what you did..your past..your regrets..<br />but there's a priority to which you should at least feel bad about or so to say..to worry.<br />the perfect word for you to ponder is <u>responsibility</u>.<br /><br />if someone/something hates you for no reason, don't even give a damn about it because it is just a waste of time.<br />if someone/something hates you for a reason, think why.<br /><br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">you messed with her feelings but you broke my heart...<br />and i did not hate you for that..<br />but you worry more of her hatred rather than the deep sore in my heart...</span><br /><br /><br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5549491790178009832-7024408682010100927?l=earwenleralonde.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Gwen Yonghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06752853493336737271noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5549491790178009832.post-26255501170281314062008-11-04T00:53:00.003+08:002008-11-11T12:57:35.605+08:00If I were a boy<br />Even just for a day<br />I’d roll out of bed in the morning<br />And throw on what I wanted and go<br />Drink beer with the guys<br />And chase after girls<br />I’d kick it with who I wanted<br />And I’d never get confronted for it<br />Because they’d stick up for me<br /><br />If I were a boy<br />I think I could understand<br />How it feels to love a girl<br />I swear I’d be a better man<br />I’d listen to her<br />Cause I know how it hurts<br />When you lose the one you wanted<br />Cause he’s taken you for granted<br />And everything you had got destroyed<br /><br />If I were a boy<br />I would turn off my phone<br />Tell everyone its broken<br />So they think<br />that I was sleeping alone<br />I’d put myself first<br />And make the rules as I go<br />Cause I know that she’d be faithful<br />Waiting for me to come home (to come home)<br /><br /><br />It’s a little too late for you to come back<br />Say its just a mistake<br />Think I forgive you like that<br />If you thought I would wait for you<br />You thought wrong<br /><br /><br />But you're just a boy<br />You don’t understand (and you don’t understand)<br />How it feels to love a girl<br />Someday you’ll wish you were a better man<br />You don’t listen to her<br />You don’t care how it hurts<br />Until you lose the one you wanted<br />Cause you've taken her for granted<br />And everything you had got destroyed<br />But you're just a boy…<br /><br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">a good piece of lyric</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5549491790178009832-2625550117028131406?l=earwenleralonde.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Gwen Yonghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06752853493336737271noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5549491790178009832.post-69502145200843424842008-11-02T14:24:00.003+08:002008-11-02T14:35:43.475+08:00remember you said TRUST was important?<br />remember you said i've lost your trust?<br />i do.<br />i have always put mine in you..<br />but the doubts tells me what i should know<br />after all i've done...you should at least start fresh..<br />which i thought you did..<br />im sorry for saying all these..<br />but the cut was too deep.<br />i will always think what i thought<br /><br />tell me..<br />how could you not think of me when you texted her?<br />how could you not think of me when you called her?<br />when you got ready to go out?<br />when you were on your way to hers?<br />how could you NOT EVEN thought of me when you did what you're not supposed to?!<br /><br />please tell me what did i do to deserve that pain?<br />tell me..<br /><br />you made me really sad..<br />you really did<br /><br />:"(<br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">another beautiful lie</span><br /><br />my feelings...my dreams..my instincts..were never wrong...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5549491790178009832-6950214520084342484?l=earwenleralonde.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Gwen Yonghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06752853493336737271noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5549491790178009832.post-80052153934287176702008-09-14T00:06:00.005+08:002008-09-14T00:23:24.904+08:00why is it when i do something wrong, it is such a <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">BIG</span> deal<br />but it is <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">NOT</span> when you did?<br /><br />if i were to spoil it, it would have been a waste of my <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">TIME</span> and especially <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">MONEY</span><br />but <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">WHY</span> would i?<br />because i <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">WANT</span> to be with you<br />and because i <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">LOVE</span> you so damn F-ing much<br /><br />can't you <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">SEE</span> how<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"> MUCH</span> i've done..<br />how much i've sacrificed..<br />how much<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"></span> i've changed for you?<br />i don't think so.<br /><br />i just <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">HOPE</span> you would pay a little bit <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">MORE</span> attention under the surface<br />and not just what's happening above<br /><br />!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5549491790178009832-8005215393428717670?l=earwenleralonde.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Gwen Yonghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06752853493336737271noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5549491790178009832.post-81624072267368258722008-08-31T16:22:00.002+08:002008-08-31T16:28:16.841+08:00How do we know if she or he is ‘the one’? What makes us sure that this person is the one who we’ll build a family and grow old with? What are the desirable traits that one looks for in their soul mate? For sure almost all of us look for the same typical traits such as loving, kind, caring, sense of humour etc. in the ‘the one’. The good looks and big banks are merely just luck and a bonus. But, what do we really want in this ideal mate?<br> <br />One of the traits that I would look for will be sincerity. His love has to be sincere because of who I am and not what I am. I don’t want someone to love me and shower me with love out of sympathy or out of any feelings of pity. Sincerity is important for me because the love comes right from the heart and not from desires. There were ups and downs in past (and present) relationships. There was honesty but such a small amount (or none) of sincerity. I don’t know why but I feel that ‘sincerity’ is a stronger word than ‘honesty’ although they pretty much bring similar meanings. However, I feel that honesty means being truthful and sincere means being pure.<br><br />Another trait would be sensitivity. I feel that he being sensitive would make me feel important and needed. I would want him to have jealousy but not possessiveness. I want him to care of how I present myself but not what I wear. I want him to know if I’m upset or happy…disappointed or pleased and would acknowledge it. I want him to shed a tear and not hold it back (a rational level of ego). I want him to share his thoughts and wanting me to be there to talk to, but not to keep it since communication is vital.<br> <br />There’s so much more to list down the desirable traits of ‘the one’ which I, one day, want to refer as my other half. What I’ve mentioned above is one of the two important traits that I’m hoping to find in the soul mate. But I guess that is just me being feminine and that all the little things matters.<br><br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;">my assignment on <span style="font-weight:bold;">'Women in Literature - Femininity: What are the desirable traits in an ideal mate'</span></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5549491790178009832-8162407226736825872?l=earwenleralonde.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Gwen Yonghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06752853493336737271noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5549491790178009832.post-1605127747157160502008-07-25T02:45:00.002+08:002008-07-25T03:06:30.573+08:00i wish i didn't have to know<br />i wish i didn't have to find out<br />and i wish i never got carried away<br />i didn't want to believe what i know<br />didn't want to believe what i found out<br />and i shouldn't have got carried away<br />yet, i am glad i knew<br />i am glad i found out<br />and i am glad i got carried away<br /><br />the day i stepped out the door<br />only soon i realize, i was twice a fool<br />i've hurt myself for too long<br />but what you did was more than what i did to you<br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;">it's a beautiful lie...such a perfect denial</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5549491790178009832-160512774715716050?l=earwenleralonde.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Gwen Yonghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06752853493336737271noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5549491790178009832.post-14291211881493308252008-07-15T17:53:00.004+08:002008-07-15T18:02:17.716+08:00sometimes i wish you could be who you said you are<br />sometimes i wish the same for myself<br />but i don't ever hide it <br />not from anyone..not from you.<br /><br />how could you say you miss me <br />when you're missing someone else?<br />how could you promise you'll hold me tight <br />when someone else is in your arms?<br />how could you be with someone <br />when i kept myself for you?<br /><br />how could you?<br /><br /><br />what i have now is a secret..<br />and that secret is your sweetest secret.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5549491790178009832-1429121188149330825?l=earwenleralonde.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Gwen Yonghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06752853493336737271noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5549491790178009832.post-55025978786111371912008-04-25T10:38:00.005+08:002008-04-25T10:56:30.713+08:00it's funny how some of us are clever with words..<br />words that will make you feel that there's hope<br />or even worse, make you think deep to the core of the earth<br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;">when words are spoken...we listen<br />when words are heard...we take it in<br />when words are taken...we make mistakes and regret<br /></span><br /><br />human beings are the hardest species to understand emotionally..<br />words are just words<br />but the intention is different..<br />the intention that makes you a fool<br />a fool who is dumb enough to believe things that are not impossible<br />things that would just bring you back down to the ground<br />but hey, that's okay..<br />that's what makes us stronger<br /><br /><br />don't you just agree<br />that words are just words?<br /><br /><br />you're pathetic<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5549491790178009832-5502597878611137191?l=earwenleralonde.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Gwen Yonghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06752853493336737271noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5549491790178009832.post-30095423952276419242008-04-06T12:58:00.005+08:002008-04-06T14:23:01.026+08:00we were once just friends<br />we were once so close<br />we were once deeply in love<br />we were once lost in each other's world<br /><br />you once made me smile all day in my heart<br />you once made me feel the things i've not felt before<br />you once made me feel so loved<br />and then, you once made me make promises i can't keep<br />because all i needed was more time<br /><br />for months now, <br />i was once sore in the heart and in the mind<br />i was once crying myself to sleep every night<br />i was once trying too hard<br />i was once felt used<br />i was once a damn fool to fall for your charms<br /><br />i am back on my toes<br />i am finally free from all the above<br />i am glad that it is finally over<br /><br />and, i was once under your spell<br />although i am going to miss it..<br />most of all<br />i am going to miss <b>you</b><br />and you know..<br />you will always have a place in my heart<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5549491790178009832-3009542395227641924?l=earwenleralonde.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Gwen Yonghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06752853493336737271noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5549491790178009832.post-83386134408555728952008-03-23T18:48:00.003+08:002008-03-23T18:57:06.337+08:00i wonder..<br />if you knew what i'm thinking<br />sometimes i wonder..<br />if you knew that this time i am for real<br />sometimes i wonder..<br />if you knew how i feel<br /><br />i am sorry...<br />for everything that i've done to you<br />we both know that you don't deserve what i have done<br />....<br />so sorry..i am...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5549491790178009832-8338613440855572895?l=earwenleralonde.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Gwen Yonghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06752853493336737271noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5549491790178009832.post-11814657292342180342008-02-29T15:10:00.002+08:002008-02-29T15:15:44.919+08:00and i had to explode in class..<br />it was a wrong day..<br />experiencing extreme PMS!<br />and they just had to <span style="font-weight:bold;">pull the pin</span>!<br /><br />it's funny that if i had to recall this day..<br />it'll only be in four year's time<br />because the 29th of february can only happen four years later<br /><br />i seriously can't wait for the 28th of march...<br />the end of my practicum days!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5549491790178009832-1181465729234218034?l=earwenleralonde.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Gwen Yonghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06752853493336737271noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5549491790178009832.post-45498287161719759442008-01-27T23:16:00.000+08:002008-02-04T22:18:56.400+08:00i never knew we could happen<br />i never knew i'd do anything for you<br />i never knew i needed you this much<br />i never knew we had our own tree<br />i never knew we had our own song<br />i never knew you sent me a teddy<br />i never knew how much you missed me<br />i never knew how much you loved me<br />i never knew you wanted to see me again<br />i never knew you cried <br /><br /><br />i know we could start over again<br />i know we could be what we said we'd be<br />i know we could have been so much more<br />i know we could love each other eternally<br />i know we could be...<br /><br /><br />i hope you think of me<br />i hope you dream of me<br />i wish it didn't take too long<br />i wish we didn't have to suffer like this<br />i wish i didn't have to suffer like this<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5549491790178009832-4549828716171975944?l=earwenleralonde.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Gwen Yonghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06752853493336737271noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5549491790178009832.post-81419016683056761182008-01-06T18:48:00.000+08:002008-01-06T18:51:18.431+08:00<a href="http://smg.photobucket.com/albums/v435/leralonde/?action=view&current=itmeansnothing.jpg" target="_blank"><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v435/leralonde/itmeansnothing.jpg" border="0" alt="it means nothing"></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5549491790178009832-8141901668305676118?l=earwenleralonde.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Gwen Yonghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06752853493336737271noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5549491790178009832.post-15750057228280735462007-12-23T10:34:00.000+08:002007-12-23T10:51:05.691+08:00has been hard on me...<br /><br />busy with pre-practicum...<br /><br />my loved one...<br /><br />finance...<br /><br />stressed...<br /><br /><br /><br />2 days to christmas..the christmas spirit in me is gone<br /><br />merry christmas and a happy new year<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5549491790178009832-1575005722828073546?l=earwenleralonde.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Gwen Yonghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06752853493336737271noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5549491790178009832.post-16804977001470074362007-10-30T01:00:00.000+08:002007-10-30T01:15:40.563+08:00is playing its part at this very moment...<br />question.<br /><b><span style="font-style:italic;">will you ever be fair</span></b>?<br /><br><br />at one point i thought mine was perfect =)<br />life is definitely crazy/beautiful.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5549491790178009832-1680497700147007436?l=earwenleralonde.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Gwen Yonghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06752853493336737271noreply@blogger.com3